A virus ravages the world.
A famine envelops mine.
I crawl into bed,
Having no measure of time,
Sleep eludes me for days,
As your memory ravages my mind.
I lift up the pillow you used
And hold it to my face.
Your smell has followed you away.
I remember,
If you remember how I would,
Or if you undoubtedly felt
When you said,
I don’t want to be with you.
I thought childhood would last forever
But it does so only in memory.
It hit me in hindsight of sex and love,
With thoughts of the death allotted to me.
My childhood friend lost her life today.
She was one I shared innocence with
And a time that had nothing to do
With loss, determination or grit.
I thought then butterflies flew forever.
Animals were never shot down for fun.
I’ve grown up now and seen prejudice kill
And blinded hatred win life’s distance run.
Things are no longer coloured for me.
They’ve all turned a hazy shade of grey.
If only I could bring assurance back,
Or have a modicum of childhood stay.
How do I get trust back?
What do I have to give?
What is it that I lack?
Are promises broken,
After they are conceived
And when they are spoken?
Have cheating hearts all hurt
So bad, that all I’m left
Are memories of dirt?
Those times that used to gleam,
Now lie torn apart as
Waking does to a dream.
How to unlearn lessons?
How do I unhear pain
Of selfish confessions?
Miners of hearts of gold
Are left with bright pyrite
Which can never be sold.
What can I get from life,
If I lose dreams and trust
And acquire love and strife?
Is this true for you, too,
That all life lives to give,
Is love from an I love you?
I am so tired you see,
But I don’t understand.
Give me a cup of tea.
I shall sit back and live,
While it lasts, I’ll forget
I can choose to forgive.
Hearts Still Care 
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