People

People have notions
Of the life I lead,
Many fail to know
Just what I need.

They see fair princes
Assume endings ;
They ignore battles,
Quiet defendings.

People love drama,
Suppose stories:
Shining armour;
Such rave glories!

Deep truth is darker,
As truth must be;
People mark the light,
Leave the dark to me.

I searched for peace;
But battled for time;
And received minutes,
That made hope mine.

People guess I smile:
I’ve more than enough!
All did and does go well!
I never had it rough!

They don’t see fear
Or anxiety,
Those slurs and punches
Bestowed on me.

How each prince I loved
Gave me songs to sing –
But only if I gave
What made him a king.

People I love,
Who love me back,
Have no qualms in
Judging what I lack;

So the fair endings,
All, wilfully, see,
Aren’t actually
What happen to me.

People are people.
This is just so.
The truth of my life
Is just mine to know.

Live

Love makes you hope,
Hope makes you weak;
Love shows you dreams,
Hope lets you seek.

Life sends you warnings,
Hope takes away fear;
Folk show their colours,
Hope makes them unclear.

Life’s wounds fester lessons,
Love unlearns to forgive;
Tears gather over smiles,
Love teaches life to live.

Wherewithal

I write in contrived rhyme,
Of love found, and of love lost,
Through the years, what I achieved
And exactly what it truly cost.

Why do most get a careless sleep,
When dark thoughts harass me so?
Why do I ask these stupid questions,
When their answers I already know?

Giving of myself comes easy;
Though I am no stranger to my worth;
I ought to be less human to
Carry on life, no matter the hurt.

I am tired of this roller coaster,
I am tired of the bitterness and pain,
I’m even tired of the truthful smiles,
That I know will surely come again.

I know love alters, when it shouldn’t,
I know death hangs around to take us all,
Yet I know I’d do it all just the same,
For I know, I’ve, within, the wherewithal!