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I Still Survive

Published on July 23, 2020 by Harpreet ChhachhiaLeave a comment

I survived a drunk father
Who tried to beat me to his will;
School bullies tried to knock me down;
But life found me standing still.

I wondered at my difference then –
But I knew it couldn’t be a flaw;
If I was honest with myself,
Who cares what another saw?

I saw the death of those I loved;
Life tried to crush hope from me;
I stared death twice in the eye;
So she smiled and let me be.

Still she had her due and
Yet she takes; but I know now:
While life rests in my heart,
She’ll stay content on my brow.

So I give in to life each time
And i let love love him so;
And death reaches in deep
When he watches love go.

I survive the parting.
I digest all of the pain.
But I know I am human;
And it’ll happen again.

So, as the sadness envelops,
Every fibre of my being,
I know I still survive, for
It’s in me I’m believing.

Reeling

Published on July 20, 2020 by Harpreet ChhachhiaLeave a comment

Most nights I find myself wide awake!
There is this end of a world feeling
That takes over sleep and suffocates rest
And sends my mind reeling!

Thoughts and memories of what we were:
A tantrum thrown; a mock wrestling match;
A joke on shorts; a song we called our own;
A kissed bandaid put on a scratch.

I become Taylor Swift, who narrated
Personal loss, pain and bullet holes;
Or Adele’s soul, in royal Albert Hall,
Proclaiming love’s future goals.

When night passes and morning comes to spite –
I quietly shut the windows on its face…
I switch on some numbing porn, or maybe
Write a poem – to fill the sleepless space.

These lonely nights make me think and yearn
Of how he (probably?) is fast asleep,
While time holds me in such a fucked-up flux,
Wherein I can’t feel, much less laugh or weep.