Worth

I know it’s not woke
To let others tell you
What you are worth.

But it’s hard to estimate
That
Yourself,
When life has shown you
Bulges where none should be
And curves where lines were.

It’s hard when you try
To explain
And the ones you love
Misunderstand.

It’s hard when the mirror
Gives you a hard look.

It’s hard when your mind
Reflects the mirror.

It’s hard.
Because you are not
When you look at me.

But
I also know
My cup of tea
Is a balm for some.
I can invigorate
Or relax.
Some.

It’s not woke to see myself
For others.
But it’s the test for souls
That need bodies to reside in.

A chip

One chip at a time
That’s how it breaks
Who knows how long
It really takes.

A word, a loss, a wound,
A sneer, a jibe, a shrug,
Maybe a tear
Or a forgotten hug.

Who knows what loss
Will find its stake,
A small chip, a last time,
And it will break.

Both Sides Now

I’m the problem solver,
I’m the instigator;
I’m the impediment
And the facilitator.

I’m the middle
And I’m the end.
I convey the truth,
Even when I pretend.

I’m loved;
I am rejected.
I am kissed,
I’m left dejected.

I yearn for hugs,
Though I am held.
My words are lost,
Even when yelled.

I contribute little;
But every decision is mine;
I have it all;
But I am running out of time.

I’m the puzzle;
I am the clue;
I can be just me –
And yet a part of you.