Death

You seem dark;
People I love
Are afraid of you.
They do not
See you truly,
As poets do.

Those think of you
As a friend,
Some as a lover,
Some as an end.

For me you’re no god,
No gateway –
You are one who will
Never betray.

I Still Survive

I survived a drunk father
Who tried to beat me to his will;
School bullies tried to knock me down;
But life found me standing still.

I wondered at my difference then –
But I knew it couldn’t be a flaw;
If I was honest with myself,
Who cares what another saw?

I saw the death of those I loved;
Life tried to crush hope from me;
I stared death twice in the eye;
So she smiled and let me be.

Still she had her due and
Yet she takes; but I know now:
While life rests in my heart,
She’ll stay content on my brow.

So I give in to life each time
And i let love love him so;
And death reaches in deep
When he watches love go.

I survive the parting.
I digest all of the pain.
But I know I am human;
And it’ll happen again.

So, as the sadness envelops,
Every fibre of my being,
I know I still survive, for
It’s in me I’m believing.

The days fly by,
Like seasons do;
I’m forgotten;
But alive, too.

Few days are good;
Most still are bad;
Some hours bring smiles;
Most keep me sad.

As the days go,
I let them, one
By one, and blur
The moon and the sun.

I put on smiles,
As night takes day;
And like the night,
They do not stay.

So I live them,
Like pills and sleep,
Like dreams I dream;
But cannot keep.