Diamonds and Gold

I stepped in with care –
Despite that we fight.
I try to find middle ground –
You can’t read what I write…

You are not open nor out,
So you hold my hand,
Only in my castle grounds,
Or when I misunderstand…

I will love you –
The one way I know.
It won’t lessen.
It will only grow.

You are young and scared,
I am scared I am old;
Your goals are diamonds,
My hope merely gold.

Anxiety

It does not give a warning.
It is never, ever, kind.
It comes like a hurricane,
Playing havoc on the mind.

The heart allows it entry.
The brain never has a say.
Time becomes a mad whirlwind
That demands the present pay.

It’s falling in ice water:
The lungs are about to burst;
There comes the gravest hunger,
With the most terrible thirst.

All the world becomes a blur,
As the hurricane breaks you;
And if you are not grounded,
It will ravage and take you.

Unloving

I do not know how to unlove.
How is love unmade?
Do I cut down the tree,
So that it doesn’t give its shade?

Do I make a new skin
That you could never touch?
Is unloving more than I can love,
Or is it not as much?

Do I forget you in a new today?
Must I love another to do so?
How do I forget what I promised,
Just because you chose to let go?

I will love another, I will love more.
You are you and he will be he.
I will keep loving you, my love,
Unloving, for me, just can never be.