Daddy Dearest

I guess my dad handicapped me:
With iron fists and alcohol breath,
He showed me a path to anger,
He brought me closer to death.
I cheated his on-hand lessons
To follow my sexual heart,
And thought myself so strong and proud
To escape the gay, body mart.
But men who are lovers become fathers,
Eventually, soon or late,
Iron breath is replaced by cold fancy,
Waiting a line away from hate.
So dad conceived a wriggly sperm,
That he thought wriggled out way too wrong,
So here the poor thing vainly sits and writes,
Still hoping to seem strong through this song.

Hoax

Life robs you of joy, of hope, of hunger;
It never stops taking;
And the heart never dies,
Although it silently keeps on breaking.

One brings you to the precipice of faith
And prevents the fall;
The other gifts feeling
And then asks you to surrender it all.

Would I, Should I?

If I was young

You would see me;

Would I give up hope

For temporary vanity?

 

If I was beautiful

You would see me;

How insubstantial

Would I have to be?

 

If I was rich

You would see me;

Does bought amity

Come with a guarantee?

 

If I was ambitious

You would see me;

Would that secure

Inviolability?

 

If I just love

You can’t see me,

Should I forget you

To assure my sanity?