Sadness Remembers

I remember when I was bullied –

I remember when I am sad –

I know they are best left alone –

Those times when I was treated bad –

But I remember them now and think –

Of how things would have, could have been –

If I had the friends I have now –

What different hopes I might have seen –

How things would, could, may have been –

If I had these friends by my side –

I would not have felt so alone –

My feelings wouldn’t have had to hide –

But – but these friends are around now –

And I have a safer harbour –

To guide this derelict into –

When sadness makes me remember.

A Lie

I lied today

To save my pride.

Now there’re more truths

To catch and hide.

I hate lying.

It’s innovation

Which needs constant

Manipulation.

I lied to thwart

Being lied about;

Unused to shams,

I’m filled with doubt.

Did I’ve to lie

To those I know well?

I feel as though

I am in hell.

I’m snared by pride:

An obligation;

Now I need a way

Out of this situation.

A Million Shades of Grey

Give up your expectations
and give in to your fate.
What is meant to be will be;
if it’s soon, it’s soon,
and if it’s late, it’s late.

Let go of that anger
I know its easier said than done –
For what use is the pain
that ends with a smoking gun?

Try and choose the quieter road
and do what should be done,
Then leave the rest to destiny;
all battles do not need to be won.

Give up your expectations –
that is the best, possible way
to learn life isn’t black or white;
it has blue and green and red
and a million shades of grey.