Staying Awake.

My night prepares me for Hope,
Staying awake in silence,
With eyes wide open,
Has made me appreciate the dark.

Loneliness corresponds.

Staying awake prepares me.

Through the past, I built my hope on blue skies and the sun.
In years, I realised the blue could turn grey,
And the sun could burn and set.

The dreams night bestowed
Were invisible by day.

So I am awake,
When the world about me
Blissfully dreams on.

Alone – doing whatever it is I do –
Staying awake at night,
Sleeping through mornings instead.

Quiet night prepares me,
For the rest of life ahead.

5th November 2007.

Prayer.

Námo, I pray, hear what I say,
On grief’s shards, I have tread;
I take thy curse, despair I nurse
In cold, on my stone bed.
The Night keeps falling,
While Woe keeps calling,
And my Heart weeps.
Námo, I pray, hear what I say,
Take my loss, keep it well;
Take my Hope that helped me cope,
As I move towards Hell.
The Night keeps haunting,
While Woe seems daunting,
And my Heart weeps.
Námo, I pray, hear what I say,
Take his breath, keep it warm;
In the pall of night, watch his sleep,
Shelter him through this storm.
The Night keeps its dark,
While Woe keeps its spark,
And my Heart weeps.
Námo, if this thou do, I vow true,
No other complaint shall I know;
The cold, I shall lovingly hold;
Wither thy Will, my Life shall go.
Though the night be deep,
And Woe my smiles reap,
My quiet heart shall keep.

3 dec 07

For now time has stilled in memory.

Monsoons cascade over my sweltering skies,
The sun’s glare no longer hurts my eyes,
The koél sings and with it my heart flies;
For now, time has stilled in memory.
The cool wind blows in from clouds wide and grey,
There is slanted light and heat’s kept at bay;
All is fresh: this is how I like my day;
For now time has stilled in memory
I lay my head down and call soft to sleep
And see what dreams I shall get to keep,
Floating along with stars in skies so deep;
For now time has stilled in memory
Through my half-closed eyes, I see the moon,
Peeking through the clouds to hear earth’s tune,
As it welcomes rain as a blesséd boon;
For now, time has stilled in memory.
I hear no sound now, for none are near me,
Some I’ve pushed away, most have set me free,
I’ve no room for pain, it, too, leaves me be;
For now time has stilled in memory
4 July 2007.