Worth

I know it’s not woke
To let others tell you
What you are worth.

But it’s hard to estimate
That
Yourself,
When life has shown you
Bulges where none should be
And curves where lines were.

It’s hard when you try
To explain
And the ones you love
Misunderstand.

It’s hard when the mirror
Gives you a hard look.

It’s hard when your mind
Reflects the mirror.

It’s hard.
Because you are not
When you look at me.

But
I also know
My cup of tea
Is a balm for some.
I can invigorate
Or relax.
Some.

It’s not woke to see myself
For others.
But it’s the test for souls
That need bodies to reside in.

5 thoughts on “Worth

  1. So, after reading this one multiple times, i have decided to decipher this line by line because i don’t think i have gotten all of it right. Harpreet, can you please please please correct the parts that i got wrong.

    I think this one is about body image issues. Allow me to share some of my experience with them. Always had them while growing up. Still have them. Knowing facts doesn’t help me get past them. However, when someone who is considered pretty or conventionally successful in their field says that it’s okay to have hyperpigmentation, dark skin and what not, them only can i accept my looks as good. The stamp of approval has to come from someone else, someone successful, someone with a certain level of authority.

    I know it’s not woke
    To let others tell you
    What you are worth.

    Its always better to internalise your Self worth.

    But it’s hard to estimate
    That
    Yourself,

    However, one’s self worth amongst other things, almost always depends on whether or not one confirms to societal beauty Standards . And body image
    issues are hard to get over from,especially if one has been made aware of the so called ‘ flaws’ repeatedly.

    When life has shown you
    Bulges where none should be
    And curves where lines were

    Bulges- love handles, tummy rolls
    Lines – jaw lines

    It’s hard when you try
    To explain
    And the ones you love
    Misunderstand.

    Its hard to explain that you still have Body image issue & it gets harder as (presumbaly) your new partner (or maybe anyone who has not met the pre glam up era Harpreet) can’t
    fathom why you Still have them.

    It’s hard when the mirror
    Gives you a hard look.
    It’s hard when your mind
    Reflects the mirror.

    The mirror is
    essentially reflecting
    your body image issues.

    It’s hard.
    Because you are not
    When you look at me.

    This person you love isn’t aroused by your looks.

    But
    I also know
    My cup of tea
    Is a balm for some.
    I can invigorate
    Or relax.
    Some.

    However you are aware that you can make some people relaxed or aroused or calm ,just by being yourself.

    It’s not woke to see myself
    For others.

    It’s determinal to have one’s self worth
    depend solely on what others think about you.

    But it’s the test for souls
    That need bodies to reside in.

    These two lines i can’t figure out.

    As always i could be completely wrong about all of it. Thank you for sharing your story with all of us Harry.

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  2. Thank you.
    Hearing this from you gives a boost to my confidence.( Any affirmation from an English teacher, on poetry is more than welcome 🤗🤗) And here the affirmation is from the author himself 🙂🙂
    Could you please elucidate the last two lines. Whenever i try and interpret them, they seem to be contrary to the two lines preceding them. i just can’t figure this one out ……..

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