47

Published on by Harpreet Chhachhia

The day is here
Of my 47th year;
Friends and family smile,
As I beguile
Them in to believing
(Maybe deceiving)
That all is well.
If they can tell
I am done,
With all the fun,
I wonder what they’d say.
Who would truly stay?
I have come this far,
I have become a star,
Since all I do is yearn.
So now, just let me burn.

6 thoughts on “47”

  1. You certainly deceived me 🙂

    Now you mention two things :

    a)Who would stay
    b)And what would they say

    I can only project my experience .
    With my limited experience, i would consider myself very lucky i can find a person with whom I can share everything and be completely vulnerable. Which is only possible if the said person is non judgemental about my thoughts and actions and is generally accepting of who i am as a person.
    However, it is hard to find ONE such a person . My first best friend, who works in a bank, and is my go to person to talk to rant/vent about anything work related. With my second best friend, i share bloody everything( i don’t mind sharing bank stuff with her, but it’s much easier to explain it to someone who works in similar conditions). Both of them don’t judge me, but don’t coddle me either and always have the right words to say. Most importantly, they get me , almost, effortlessly.

    So,i have 2, people with whom I can be myself and be vulnerable enough to share different aspects of my life , and they choose to stick around and not leave . For that, I consider myself extremely lucky.
    Unfortunately, my second bestfriend has suddenly decided to not spare time for me at all, and i feel she has left me and I am left wondering what the hell did i do to deserve that?

    Hence, i get the fact not all people stay. And i wish to have atleast 3 such people, whom I can call ‘my people’; हक से .

    Thus, it you have
    non judgemental people in your life
    with whom you can be your vulnerable self and
    they choose not leave after seeing your messy side , Consider your self a lottery winner.

    As regards to what they would say, they would probably know you better than you know yourself, so expect things like, ” i know” , eyerolls, and ” i told you so” along with, ” let’s Cheer you up” and “chai piye?” And “butha kyon latkya hua hai? ” 😅😅

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  3. Just to let you know how much your poetry impacts me. i was just about to go to sleep and the thought that hit me just before that, was what would those whose choose to stay , say , when they learn that you yearn to burn.
    I can only hazard a guess. I think they might say, you have a lot more life left in you than you think.
    Yes, indeed you have lost a lot, but for those who can see you objectively, might see that a lot more life still remains.
    Live because you have a lot more life to see, the good stuff and the bad stuff(can’t help it, they are joined at the hips)
    And live because those who choose to stay , would want you stay. You are a important part of their lives.
    But then again, it’s just what i think, i could be completely off the mark.

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  4. Happy Birthday dear
    I know it’s a past post.

    Just I got to find it and read it and loved it

    Well expressed of a sense of longing and perhaps a desire for release or transformation.

    Sometimes we feel overwhelmed, and we seek solace in surrendering to the process.

    The intensity of our emotions or experiences is unfathomable even by ourselves ….

    Keep writing
    Best of luck
    ♥️

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