And now, how they all do laugh:
Green-eyed ones who envied me,
When we three played together –
Now, how they revel in glee!
I was secure to not change
Aspects of identity –
That now seem so very strange,
Since I’ve lost serenity.
I wander lost, through each day,
And family worries, too;
But I just can’t put away
The old rules that seem so true.
So, spectators watching laugh.
In a baffled mind, comes shame.
They’ll warn on some cenotaph:
Dreamers like him fail the game.
Hearts Still Care 
There is nothing to be ashamed of. They are still jealous, that is why they rejoice. They either don’t have the clarity about what they they want or are too scared to move a toe outside the the so called societal norms. Either ways, they want what you had(and lost). Also, they are jealous about the fact that you can be yourself and try to navigate new things while being true to yourself and your loved ones. They never bothered to do that.They are jealous that you can do all that and shine and fail and try again. To do all that in the public eye is a success my dear. A successful feat they are yet to accomplish. They are jealous that you are more successful at love than they are.
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