“Positivity”

Do not wish upon a hope!

Grief is derailed,

Amid injections and responsibilities!

I’ve lost to death several times over –

The houses I live in

Are barren with old life –

And there’s nothing left to look ahead –

Except darkness and pain.

People talk to me of god,

And hope, and positivity –

I want them to come here,

Do what I am doing,

And then find the breath

To even speak.

Song

I am broken like the #system

Of ambulances ringing out…

I have no strength left within me,

I no longer wish to shout.

There is a song in my head

It is beautiful and freeing;

And all who have gone before

Are the ones I am now seeing.

They come with smiles and open arms;

They come with the light of the moon;

They tell me they miss me;

Perhaps it’s time to join them soon.

Those Smiling Faces…

The hits they keep on coming!

Life I suppose works this way…

But I’ve seen others happy,

Their fruits are ripe,

Their suns come to stay.

Rain seems fair for me, I guess –

It has its share of dark peace –

And, in stranger times,

Water brings so much release!

But, puddles form muck;

Falls happen; and infections;

And, most times, I resent

Most of all my reflections.

I’ve seen people hope and smile,

I know I mock them with sneers;

I wonder if my mind will choose

To accept the wishes my heart hears.

Loss and life seem intertwined;

I have made my peace with rain;

But those smiling faces and suns

Keep mocking me again and again.