Choices.

If I were to stand on one side,
Opposed to the world and the ties that bind,
Which would you choose? Me or those?
What would my eyes see? What would my heart find?

Oracles in my life warned in vain:
‘Find one who knows his choice, one who knows to fight;
The one who knows what is dark,
One who can shield and yet guide you to the light.’

Choices, after all, are often heart-made;
And there was your face – you came to me as a better choice,
The gentle heart behind golden eyes,
No matter the length of years or lack of diligent voice.

The time was such.
But beginnings are always passionate, star-bright,
You used to bring me flowers,
Those hours of impatient wait, those miss-you nights.

But things change,
There is so much to write;
If only I could lose …
If only you could fight.

If I were to stand on one side,
Opposed to the world and the ties that bind,
I know what you would choose,
And your regret of what you leave behind.

22 January.
5am

Darkness and Thorns.

The sky has dropped its foul, grey hue
Upon this world and me;
And when the wind comes howling through,
It brings no felicity.

The birds have lost their will to sing,
And mourn this darkened hour;
The sun becomes a had-been thing,
Which once had supreme power.

Those clouds that touch the earth are dark
And cover the surfaces of seas;
While ashes billow with each spark
And hound all like swarms of bees.

The world has no more flowers to offer
And there are thorns, thorns in my way;
And, I know, my blooms lie in a coffer,
But my thorns will not wilt away.

4th August

Dūníyā Karé Sawāl.

If the world asks me – questions,
What answers shall I give?
If you do not even think of this,
What answers do I give?
The world asks me questions …

Someone asks, where have you
Left your heart?
From exactly whom did the relation
Of love and life depart?
When it gets difficult to speak of this fate –
What answers do I give?
The world asks me questions …

Someone asks, this pain of fidelity
Was left back by whom?
The punishment to spend nights awake
Was left back by whom?
If I am ashamed to speak of this state –
What answers do I give?

If you do not even think of this,
What answers shall I give?
If the world asks me questions,
What answers do I give?
What answers do I give?