Hearts Still Care

There is a doll sitting on the shelf
Bought a long time ago
All she wants is to be seen
Like she was once long before.
Something like an annual beauty queen
Then life did a turn and grew up
Now she collects dust on the mantel
Sometimes she is brought down in arms
For memory’s cruel sake
Sometimes for innocence that is now what had been
So there she sits now
Forgotten for the better part
And hopes and hopes and hopes
Just to be seen.

I perceive darkness cannot save me:
I have loved the light long;
Thoughts have germinated feeling,
The sun is far too strong.

The moon still has lessons to teach,
But she appears dead.
I cannot unlearn the lessons
Already in my head.

Writing itself is tedious,
It’s a necessity,
Darkness struggles vainly through words:
It’s synchronicity.

I wander aimlessly in thought
And imagined reason.
My brain has turned chaotic:
It now becomes legion.

I think I have begun to hate:
For love speaks to the light;
And I realise the dark
Never wanted to fight.

I wish life was kinder

I wish I was blinder

I wish I didn’t hope

I wish I could cope

I wish love stayed true

I wish I never knew

I wish for an open sky

I wish I knew why

I wish I could stop pain

I wish i could refrain