To Husna

In times past, as I searched, quite hard, for love,
Friendship appeared; but was cast far aside.
The mind reasoned, as the beating heart strove
And affection came duly to abide.
Pain, character and such opposition
Overcame lust and love and the heart quailed.
By then, friendship had no strong position;
But in time, it by tried reason prevailed.

However as shitty luck would have its say,
Love crept, in time, into the minds of friends,
And, eventually, ground its own way,
Therein it festered and changed night to day.
So now who can tell what on what depends,
And what can be prevailed on what to stay.

Losing Parts of My Soul

and winter brings with it each year,
a weariness from the last tear
that tore its way out from my eye
with no will to lay down and die;
it’s not a proper death, my dear,
it’s a theft, a little each year,
yes, i resent this on the whole,
losing little parts of my soul,
little here, little there, little
went down the drain with my spittle;
so why do tears fall with those leaves?
why does the brain think as the heart grieves?
what answer I seek has nature guessed,
or has she in autumn confessed?
why is the tear still forming to flow?
what is it i do not in full know?
Is it the blight man was born for?
Is it me I quietly mourn for?

– inspired by loss
and by the climax of Spring and Fall by Gerard Manley Hopkins

Some times like these

Sometimes, some times like these
Stop your heart, make it burst;
Pain filled with no release;
Nothing to quench this thirst;

Some times like these, sometimes,
Bring memory like a storm;
Tears become broken rhymes,
No longer alive, no longer warm.