I can put away the pill;
I haven’t put away my pain;
But sleep is lured to me,
As fatigue strives again.
The draining of the heart
Is a gruelling process –
a rigmarole of feeling
That affords no recess.
Four words from someone
Can tear you down;
Four words can also freely
Send in the clowns.
I want to try and see
If I can earn some sleep
Without its torturing –
Or its rest being deep.
If I can be let go,
Despite love and living,
It’s time to take heed
And start a self forgiving.
Hearts Still Care 
I get that you want a good restive sleep without the pill. I want that as well. However, i cannnot have one without the other. So i may skip the pill for a few days out of sheer frustration, but then i can’t function without sleep for more than 2-3 days . Hence i always go back to the pill.There is no alternative.
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