I went for a walk.
(I struck out “with you”)
You walked ahead,
In silence.
A stranger maintaining social distancing.
I walked behind you.

The silence lasted
The entire walk.
20 minutes.
It felt like each time
You left me alone –
Outside dressing rooms,
In parties,
In your family.

It exacerbated
All recent loss
All of my grief.

But I counted on you
For relief.

Instead,
You took me into the past.
And reminded me
Of who you were,
Who I was,
Before I became.

Now,
Again,
I forget my name.

I wonder if this is how
Love makes all pain last,
As this walk took me farther from my future,
Into an apathetic past.